Foolish Beings

Heres a self measured test for stress, offered by Dabuek Goleman Ph.D..  How do you measure and hold stress in your body? Or help you identify your path toward bliss.

Check the ones that apply:

1.  My heart beats faster

2.  I find it difficult to concentrate because of distracting thoughts

3.  I worry to much about things that don’t matter

4.  I feel jittery  

5.  I imagine terrifying scenes

6.  My stomach gets tense

7.  I pace up and down nervously

8.  I am bothered by unimportant thoughts running through my mind

 

Give yourself a Body point for:  1,4,6,7 

 Give yourself a Mind point for: 2,3,5,8

 If you have more Mind than Body points, consider yourself a mental stress type, and meditation will probably add to your bliss.  If you have more Body than Mind points, your stress is physical and you might be better off taking a walk .  About the same number of each?  You are a mixed reactor and are likely to be most blessed doing both.

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I know that when kundalini moves in me, she is sacred and not dangerous; she is alive, and so am I. My sexuality, my healing prowess, and my abundant energies are all part of the same gift of the the Goddess in my sacred body. The body is more than a sensual receptor, more than a physical vehicle, it is an instrument of superconscious awareness with a direct line to the soul. Vicki Noble

That quote by Vicki Noble’s took me back to when I first began to experience my own kundalini energy, I was 41 at the time. In those days I was learning to embrace the Goddess energies of, Earth,Water,Wind and of course Fire. Dancing in the deserts of Southern California with a tribe of wild women, I was assisted by these spirit sisters toward understanding my kundalini energy, something unfamiliar to me was emerging, my own inner power. I did not understand the power of this energy at that time, but that would soon change, and so would my life. I fully enjoyed the juicy-ness of how good it made me feel, and I told myself that there was no need for concern, as I felt in complete control of myself . Reflecting back , I chuckle as I realize how naive’ I was about the whole concept. Years later during my first encounter with Ayahuasca, the sensual serpent of kundalini rose like a tidal wave within me. It was a great feeling to have the sex drive of my early 20’s smack me in my first chakra. As a seeker of super conscious states of awareness, Ayahuasca is for me a tool I use when diving deep into my soul. This is indeed sacred work and is not to be taken lightly. I do not get to pass "GO" and I do not get to "COLLECT 2 hundred dollars" but I do get to go directly to "FIX YOUR LIFE" and pay the rent! I was becoming a vessel of ancient power, Ayahuasca was dissolving my ego, so that my vessel could become more fluid and flexiable. Expressing my sexual needs had little to do with my need for relationships. But it had everything to do with my manifesting cosmic energy while on this Earth walk through life.

 

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1994 Death Dream

I just finished reading "Shakti Woman" by Vicki Noble.  Her beliefs on life and death are very close, if not the same as mine.
Progress of the soul.  Advancement to enlightenment.  Using my physical body that walks the earth to move my soul body forward on it’s journey home.  

My dream last night was one of death.  I found myself in a situation where I was going to be killed, dying didn’t scare me, it was the method by which death would come that scared me.  I don’t want to be tortured, drown or have a violent painful  death.  I imagine no one wants that, if they had a choice in the matter.

I pondered the death dream and its meaning.  What was happening in my life that needed to die. Would that death cause me pain?  Would the transformation be violent or tortured?   The death in my dream did not come swiftly, no it took more years for me to embrace it, to understand the purpose of this dream.  

My egoic self was about to die.  The part of me that manipulated, judged, blamed and all the icky stuff I did to get my needs met, but those actions  were unsatisfying and shallow to my inner beings growth. For years after this dream, I struggled with my own self destruction all the time I was unaware that I was  preparing  for the death I had experienced in my dream years before……

In 2003 I traveled to the jungles of Peru where I met death face to face in a small hut deep in the Amazon rainforest.  I had journeyed for two days to drink the "Vine of Death", Yage also known as Ayahuasca.  

The experience of dying is an interesting sensation, I actually found it pleasant. The means to get there is less so, a brew from Banisteriopsis caapi and Psychotria viridis make up the tea or brew that is ingested by the jungle tribes of the Amazon. Ayahuasca is a sacred brew used by many indigenous communities of the Amazon jungle for divination, healing and other cosmogonic or shamanic purposes.  Physically a person can expect to vomit or have diarrhea as the brew winds its way through the intestional tract.

The mind on the other hand is aware of parallel dimensions within reality, a heightened awareness is stimulated as the brew transcends the blood brain barrier, the third eye opens through stimulation of the pineal gland, located at the base of brain. I found the experience of Ayahuasca to be a gateway into my soul, one that I could not deny was frighteningly alluring. For there, in that heightened state of awareness I met the dark shadow side of myself, the ego was her handmaiden.

I was seeking to strip away my false self, I wanted to live an authentic life, that part of this sacred work was painful torture for me.  I realized I did not need to kill my ego only to understand its purpose and give it direction within that purpose, as one would do with a child. I received the  unexpected gift of knowing unconditional love too.  The connection to the realm of spirit through the "Vine of the Soul" is profoundly beautiful, enlightening and pragmatic. The inner work we each do toward our own self realization or living authentically is challenging, but I have found it to be worth all the adventures Spirit has asked me to take…… dreamtime or realtime its all about living authentically.

 

 

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